That is the ultimate question.
So about 10 weeks ago, I decided to start prepping for my 3rd competition in Orlando. About 5 weeks out from showtime, I was told that the show was cancelled, BUT that there was a show in Jacksonville a week later. Okay… So that gives me an extra week to prep, right?
Well, yes, essentially it does. So my mindset changed and it’s funny how everything started clashing. My diet was way off point; not because I wasn’t disciplined, but because life started getting in my way with my work schedule, personal social issues, and above all my motivation to grind. It has gotten to the point where I look at myself in the mirror and I am NOWHERE where I would like to be this close to the stage.
To some, it may look the same. To others, they may see an improvement. Here’s what I see. I do see a change and an improvement. I’m damn proud of it. What I DON’T like is that it took me over a year to make such a small improvement. Now I know change doesn’t happen overnight. Trust me, I preach that. But I’ve been working my ass off to improve my legs and my glutes and I want more than what I see. Make sense?
Let me tell you what I’m saying here. What I’m saying here is, long story short, I’m not competing again anytime soon. “Why?!” most people might ask, “You look great!”
Thank you, but competing isn’t all about looking good on stage. Well, it is, but it’s more than that to me. Competing in the fitness industry, to me, is also about your mentality. If I am to step on that stage, it is to show everyone watching all the hard work I’ve put into what I’m promoting up there. If I walk up there with anything less than the last time, what exactly am I proving? What am I proving to myself?
I am way too competitive for that. So I am starting fresh. I am adjusting my focus and mentality. I know exactly what I need to work on and what I need to do to make sure that the next package that I bring on stage is the best one I have to offer. At that point, even if I don’t place or win, I know that I gave it my all and brought the best I had at that point, then just work harder to make it even better for the next one.
I have goals this year:
- I would love to go pro. I had the opportunity to become nationally qualified at the Winter Classic in Ft. Lauderdale in December last year. I placed 5th. I was so damn proud of that. Come to find that the national qualification status of the competition had been revoked because it was a brand new show. FML. Really. But that’s okay. I self coached for that show in 11 weeks. I learned a lot about my body and how it responds to certain foods and exercises and routines. And I still placed 5th. With a few adjustments, I think this whole pro thing is doable by the end of 2016.
- My modeling career. I have always wanted to model for big names like Nike or Adidas. I just recently this year started picking up more modeling gigs to strengthen my portfolio.
- Move out to Los Angeles. As mentioned above, I am planning my next contract (I am a travel nurse) in and around the Los Angeles area. I feel that this is a HUGE leap in the right direction to advance my fitness career.
- Personal training. I am hoping that around Fall I will will be able to start offering online training and meal plans. I will be working towards my personal training certification and developing programs to fit all types of needs: home, gym, outdoor. I will be working with a good friend of mine to make motivational and workout videos, blogs, v-logs, easy to access and affordable workout and meal plans, and taking you all on a journey to creating your own success in living a healthy life.
- Personal development. My body is forever changing. I have a huge goal to greatly improve on my legs and glutes before my next competition. I don’t know when that nexy competition will be, but here are a few potentials:
- April 23 – Diamond Classic – National Qualifier – Boca Raton, FL
- April 29-30 – IFBB/NPC Europa Show of Champions – National Qualifier – Orlando, FL
- June 11 – Jon Linsay’s Southern California Championship – National Qualifier – San Diego, CA
- August 13 – Orange County Muscle Classic – Culver City, CA
- September 24 – Ruby Championships – National Qualifier – Boca Raton, FL
- October 1 – Daytona Beach Classic – Open Nationwide – Daytona Beach, FL
- October 8 – Southeastern USA – National Qualifier – Orlando,FL
- October 15 – Champions Cup – Open Nationwide – Steroid Tested – Qualifier for Team Universe – Orlando, FL
- December 3 – IFBB/NPC Winter Classic – National-Qualifier – Ft. Lauderdale, FL
So reasoning behind going back and forth between California and Florida (being that they are on two completely opposite sides of the country) is for family. I can come visit AND compete. I plan on having a very busy competition season and year in general.
If you’re wanting to get involved and/or follow me on this journey, you can:
A lot of things in store for this year and I can’t wait to share it with you all. I have a great feeling about things to come. Let’s go on this journey together, shall we?!